Musings

       This morning I was thinking about the Graham Cooke Conference we went to a couple of weeks ago.  One of the things Graham has emphasized every time I've heard him speak is that every problem comes with a promise and a provision attached.  He explains that if you have a large problem you can expect a large provision in the end which will result in an upgrade in your walk with the Lord. Of course, there is a reqirement that we must keep our eyes on Him, rejoicing in who He is.
      As I was reflecting on this I was thinking about how I often get tripped up with thoughts of "but I prayed & believed and instead of the person receiving an upgrade, he/she died."  When I think this way I begin to doubt God instead of seeing the provision and the upgrade.  Yesterday when I was talking with a friend whose husband died recently it occurred to me that we had felt somehow as if we failed him because we prayed and prayed for his healing but he died.  The thought popped into my mind that he had received the ultimate upgrade--he was forever in God's presence.  Isn't that our goal for ourselves and all those we care about?
      Don't we often act as if our goal is to stay on earth for eternity? Why is it so difficult for us to get out of that mindset?   God is the one who decides when we are ready for an upgrade and what it's to look like.  Sometimes it is on earth; sometimes it is in heaven.  His ways are not our ways.  Maybe one person's ultimate upgrade is the very means God will use to bring upgrades in others' lives.  Don't we all say the ultimate upgrade--going to heaven to be with Jesus--is what we want and one reason why we invited Him into our hearts?  I realize we are only being human, but isn't it selfish to look at death for a Christan as anything but an upgrade?
      I want to have eyes to see as He sees, to trust & believe Him more, and to seek His will & His way instead of focusing on my wants, don't you?